Maybe had this been any other ordinary day, this page would never had
made it to my site.
Today, because of the mood I have been experiencing
the past week or so, I decided to write and share a very small part
of my
life.
This is not as big a world as we sometimes believe it to be, and I am certain
that someone, somewhere, will be able to identify with this short segment of
my early life.
There may be fragments throughout this writing, where you are
able to see some resentment, anger, and sadness that visits me during my darker
moments in life.
I am trying hard to make them days become fewer, as I am sure
many of you folks are trying to do.
I think it is so sad that it took death for my parents to realize, that the son who they
could see no good in, and thought would amount to nothing, is a good man.
They were
wrong about me for many years, and did not take the time to know me for who I am
To Mom And Dad In Heaven
Can you remember a time when I was a child,
You would rock me in your arms to sleep,
Tell me how much you loved me,
And prayed the Lord my soul to keep?
Can you quickly recall all the words of praise,
That you made certain my ears would hear,
Whenever I tried to do something special,
Just to hear you say, That's wonderful dear"?
And can you remember beyond the shadow of a doubt,
How at a very young age, I kept us all together,
Throughout the times when your parties would rage,
And I thought being dead would be better?
I'm sure you'll recall the paralyzing fear I felt,
While laying in my bed late at night,
My heart would beat wildly as I prayed,
"Please God, don't let them fight"?
Now this I'm sure you will remember,
How alcohol affected us all,
But why did you leave it up to me,
To fix a home that was about to fall?
You never planted self confidence,
Nor did you lift my self esteem,
It seemed that while I was growing up,
You both were cruel and mean.
Even as a child I tried and did my best,
To keep you both happy together,
But it's plain to see you both used me,
And that's why I'm writing this letter.
In later years when you both saw some light,
And you no longer needed my love,
Your minds became so twisted and torn,
You turned your back on me and shoved!
To me it seems so very sad,
That it is only now that you know,
You never knew your loving son,
And had never seen him grow.
~valentyne~ ©
